Brake or Break?

sometimes i want to step hard on the brake, holding life and love and space in a piece of ice
i want to numb every little thing that bites into my hard skin and leaves more than teeth marks
this is impossible, but i won't break because i can't brake
i'll just accelerate even more
because what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
and its all just a bunch of overthinking



A random little piece from over a year ago.

~ K A T H R Y N






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Hear It

I will arise and go now, for always night and day
I hear lake water lapping with low sounds by the shore;
While I stand on the roadway, or on the pavements grey, 
                                                   I hear it in the deep heart’s core.
                                                                           ~

photos taken on a recent snow day--the snow provided an amazing reflector that proved for some very fantastic effects!

the verse selected to accompany the photos is from "The Lake Isle of Innisfree" by W.B. Yeats.--I've been delving into the poetry of Ireland and am finding some gems. ;)



~ K A T H R Y N




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Sunlight Jewels





 


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~ K A T H R Y N


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Wish

wish
four letters
a story untold
a plan that was never carried out
it draws a smile to the lips
bring tears to blurry eyes
longing for it to come true rubs at your heart
but the sacrifice! the fear! the unknown! 

blurry self portrait from last Summer


~ K A T H R Y N


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The Cave

surly shadows danced listlessly against the stony walls
walls that provided our only landscape, walls that did not provoke thought
do walls ever provoke thought? i suppose, sometimes.
but not these walls.
reality was merely a smoky illusion
cast carelessly on these walls with the ardor of Hephaestus
our bonds held us fast, no thoughts to free us
no pellucid aspirations to give us wings

i somehow managed to break my bonds
given strength by my yearning for truth
i ran as fast as my weakened limbs could carry me
up
up
up
to the light

the light burned with a fiery intensity
it seemed to purge me of all the darkness that had ever been in me
i saw the truth
and it was beautiful
i longed to share it with the whole world so that they too could feel the scintillating sparkle
of a glimpse of eternity

i ran to my still fettered companions 
spilled my enlightenment and joy and encouragement
come seek the light with me, let it wash over you
they looked at me like i had gone mad
and maybe i had

they assaulted me with anger behind their eyes
but i did not fear
i did not feel anger
i felt a pity that tore my soul to pieces and brought tears to me eyes
will you not come to the light?


~ K A T H R Y N


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Getting to the Pointe

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Last Summer, I made it a top priority to audition and attend a summer intensive. For those of you who don't know, this is basically a very intense summer camp where you focus heavily on many dance styles.

I auditioned for the Fort Wayne Ballet and Milwaukee Ballet summer intensives. These are both close to home and not huge, something that I think is good for my first time doing something like this. I got into both. I got a small scholarship for the Fort Wayne intensive, and got into the pre-professional tech 1 program with Milwaukee. I decided to go with Milwaukee, as I can stay with my grandparents for the six weeks. The audition was also more challenging than the Fort Wayne one, and I hope that I can improve my abilities drastically by wading far out of my comfort zone.

To be honest, sometimes I ask myself why I stick with ballet. It's so harsh in an attempt to create an illusion of beautiful perfection. Ever since I became serious about it (a year ago), I've been subjecting myself to constant criticism, beating myself up about small details, and wracking my brain as to how I can achieve what is expected of me.  It kinda hurts, both mentally and physically. I'm also not very comfortable with going to stay-away camps and being with so many new people.
In the end, though, I come back to the same conclusion: this will all help me to achieve my dreams. I can't wait to experience the feeling that only a goal achieved through hard work can bring.

You know you truly love something when you can't live without it...and I certainly cannot imagine living without ballet.

~

What are you passionate about? 


~ K A T H R Y N







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Star Crossed Lovers

the moon came out into the velvety night
he caught the glow of sun's skirts as she drifted away
he softly caressed her golden tresses
whispered to her softly
"we're day and night, and if our love be true
we can live together, in this expanse of blue"
she smiled shyly, tentatively whispered
"fate deigned that jovial cupid should
pierce our hearts in a single shot"
so they went up into the sky 
and promised to be together always

alas! the grey meteorites shot past
and were bewildered at the lukewarm glow of the two orbs
they battered the strange with a less than gentle touch
and managed to tumble the sun from the sky

moon wept with anguished tears
and extinguished himself from the sapphire domain

sun, however, had not been hurt by the fall
only her shining skirts were rumpled
she ran back up to the sky, calling to the moon
only to find his milky blood
striped across the sky

her heart was raw with a throbbing pain
she took the sharp bolt of zeus
and plunged it into her vulnerable heart





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inspired by William Shakespeare's famous play, Romeo and Juliet

picture taken last Christmas ;)

~ K A T H R Y N



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2 A.M.

the sickly orange light of the streetlamp pours in the window
the faint hum of a car in the distance drones on
my eyes squint into the darkness
what was that?
i think i just heard a shadow
but wait
the world is swirling into grayish warmth again
i fall asleep before finishing a sleepy reflection


~ K A T H R Y N



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